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Unrecognized, Unforgiven, Unashamed!

February 14, 2014

Since I’ve come back to Christ there have been some interesting things I’ve noticed. Some of them I really enjoy, and some of them kind of hurt. The more I observe it, and the more my heart relies on Christ, the less the thoughts of others concern me.

Unrecognized. This is the fun one. So many of my friends of the past 25 years know the fun guy. I tried to be the life of the party. I lived up to it pretty well too! I was generally really good to people. Occasionally, I could be a jerk, but that was usually earned by the person I was a jerk to. For the last 4 1/2 years I’m no longer partying like a ‘rock star.’ My personal excitement comes from getting an email from someone in my eGroup asking for prayer. The ones who knew good ol’ Jorge wouldn’t believe that! I find I can’t stop talking about the Lord! I invite old friends to church all the time. Sometimes I worry I’m annoying them, but you know what? I don’t sense that. I think they’re usually honored to know I care enough about them to ask.

Unforgiven. This is the not so fun part. This goes back 25 years also, to the folks who I put on a spiritual pedestal. This could be preachers, youth leaders, Bible college classmates and Christian friends. I have been hesitant to write this blog because I really don’t want unbelievers to read it. On the other hand, I need to be real and show people just because we’re believers doesn’t mean we don’t have faults. I’ve reached out to many, offered apologies for the way I acted and tried to show them how God has changed me and is using me. Often I get absolutely no response. I get the sense now, that even had I repented of my ways 25 years ago, some of these people never would have forgiven me. I can’t say that doesn’t bother me. It hurts, but it’s a scar I’m willing to show now!

Unashamed! Are there things in my past I shouldn’t have done? Absolutely. That being said, had I not faltered, screwed up, fell flat on my face, I wouldn’t be the man I am today. I may have walked away from God for a long time, but He was always there protecting me. I needed to be at what I believe was my rock bottom to realize I needed Christ to reach down and pull me up! I felt it the second I turned back to Him. He was there. Do I wish those from my past who I did look up to would reach out and show they care about me? Of course, I’m human after all. That being said, I cannot let how I think they feel about me keep me from loving them and forgiving them regardless of whether they want my forgiveness. I have nothing to prove to any man or woman anymore, for I am loved by the only One who I need to please. He is faithful!

To my unbelieving friends, I hope the way I live now makes it obvious to you that it’s not just me who’s changed. Rather, it’s Christ in me that’s the difference. The ones who I mentioned that never reach out to me will probably never see this, and that’s okay. I still love them and wish them the best. I said before I always wished I’d had a testimony to share when I was growing up. Now I do. I really wish some could see that, but I’ll not be deterred by anyone who doesn’t believe the change in me is real. It is, He is and I’ll just have to keep showing it with love!

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2 Comments
  1. Kim Tesh permalink

    Hi George! I knew you first as the “fun guy”ou mentioned, until HCF one Sunday. You were answering questions about the Bible out loud during service. I was completely impressed. Being a “fun gal” from the past, it inspired me! Keep the blog up! LLove ya brother!

    • Thank you so much Kim! That truly means a lot. I’ve got a lot of love for the Tesh family! 🙂

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